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A Way With Words -Prologue.Pt2 (ErwinxReaderxLevi)

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“A Way With Words”

[A Modern AU fan-fiction]

Erwin x Tsundere!Reader x Levi

Warning: Current and future contents may contain mature language, violence and/or situations (which are not of explicit nature). THIS PART may be lime-ish (mild one though—none of it contents scenes, just small, suggestive stuffs). ._. 

Synopsis: The shattering solitude during your journey when you left for or return from your University is always the lowest point of your daily life. However, one fine afternoon, you are caught in between karma—to relish the chance of amicable change or remain in the lonely comfortable present and to chose between the professional, successful executive Erwin Smith or the freelancing, unlucky German artist Levi Ackerman as your companion.

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Prologue
Part 2

- - - - - - - Erwin Smith, Communications Director for RECon, an advertising company - - - - - - -

A raspy gasp reaches into his aching lungs through dried up throat and flaring nostrils as he heaves in for the humid air—cold sweats now seeping through all his stretched out pores. He immediately hurls the blanket over to rid of that stinging heat, letting it slip off from the mattress in an ‘omph’ sound; the dense air around him reluctantly tries to cool his body down. He sits up now, his breathing still as tense as ever, but his once deep slumber is now scared away by the herald of a similar, painful sentiment.  

It’s like Switzerland all over again!

There’s a mere hole through a gape between the deep lavender curtains that allow a shed of light into the dark room, which was designed—like all the parts of his five-bedroomed Victorian townhouse—in a modern contemporary style. Simplicity is the best for him as it suited his organised personality all the same; the master bedroom, or rather his room, is equipped with white-gloss surfaces everywhere (from the bedside table, the wardrobe, chest of drawers to the bed frame, etc). There’s a king sized bed with satin-white sheets and clutters of green dots to complement the room’s mauve walls, two pictures of orchids framed with deep brown wood hanging aligned with identical porcelain bedside lamps and a simple clock of mahogany wood hanging across the bed—one he now stares at blankly due to lack of proper light.

His crystal azure eyes trail towards the windows’ pane to his left, wondering if he had left them open, but the lack of oxygen in the room is evident that he hadn’t. A pounding headache abruptly summons his unusually calm fortitude of a head; he quickly reaches up to knead against the skin above his temple, jaw tight through the pain. He ruffles up his already unkempt blonde hair as he tries to chuckle off the idea of him suffering from trauma which was incurred from seven years ago. He shrugs now, proceeds to drag his feet along the bed’s surface towards its side with his bucking knees attempting to stand up; he walks on over to the curtains. He digs his fingers into the fabric, pulling it away and squinting his eyes in the process—to his surprise, it was already morning.

Shit! I better get my phone! Armin and Nifa are probably screa—

CRASH!


He whips his head behind him; he could tell the sound came from below and he rushes out of his barren master bedroom, down the staircase to see what it was—even quick enough to grab onto a golf club that he left in his office next door. His home had only been redesigned recently and what was a congested, cramped up five bedroomed house now became incredibly large and flat-like; he has to make sure that there the master bedroom shares with another room (which was later converted into his office), two guest rooms ready on the second floor and a single room down at the same level as the kitchen for his future guests. 

His hard digits grip tightly around the rubber band of the handle, making silent haste down the refurbished carpeted steps, and oculars tearing at every sight of items in his house—just making sure that everything was intact and still there.

Everything’s still here... Keep calm. Maybe that sound was from a cat, a dog or some animal outside! 

He feels his grip loosen around the handle, but it isn’t the time to hesitate; he may have an intruder in his home and he doesn’t like the idea of their confrontation on this beautiful sunny afternoon, having just woken up from a nightmare—an outlandish and ludicrous one of that. He then sees that one of the door to the rooms on the second floor was actually opened—this immediately becomes his first target. As he approaches the door, he passes by the other room and checks its contents—just in case. But no one was there nor was there any signs of intrusion. 

Just take a peek inside the room, Erwin—that’s all you have to do!

He peeks over the rail of the staircase along the hallway, checking to see that no one was waiting or lurking there; when the coast is clear, he quickly wraps his hands around the brass door knob and gently (but quickly) pushes it open and swing his club—revealing no one there

What the hell?

He walks into the room, where he merely studies the same pure white satin-silked bed; its sheets are warm, the blanket messed around and over, its pillows have an existing crater where a human head must’ve lied on and there is now a backpack that he knows doesn’t belong to him—it even has so many flight tags. Not to mention, there are clothes all over the room—from the floor by the doorway to the bathroom, some of them even leaking out of the bag itself. Erwin then raises his eyebrows when a hissing cold wind blows into the room and gasps silently as he caught the sight of the window panels—

No... I left it open?

With his aghast expression remains plastered on his now pale face, Erwin Smith walks over to the window sill, ignoring how the golf club slips out of his hands through his daze. His arms, though limb and nearly lifeless, reaches out for only to shut the windows tight; he never recalled opening them—unless he was too drunk last night to notice. Perhaps his drunk self was too depressed to think straight and left the windows open. 

I’ve moved on from her. We all did. We all have. 

He lets out a reluctant sigh as he exits the room, picking up his golf club, and frowns at the thought of his own mistake—had there really been an intruder, he shouldn’t have done that and let the intruder have an advantage over him. Shaking his head, he goes back to the office and returns the club to its rightful place; but when he gets out of his office and shuts the door behind him, he hears a familiar tune. 

And mother always told me be careful of who you love,
and be careful of what you do ‘cause the lie becomes the truth~oh!
Billie Jean is not my lover!
She’s just a girl who claims that I am the one, 
but the kid is not my son...”


He almost stumbles at the rail as he comes down the staircase. He knows that voice—it was long forgotten and people had moved on, but it’s here now—in his house. He couldn’t even believe it; tremors venture out crawling on his skin, disabling his limbs from doing a well aimed job as he staggers his way into the kitchen. And there she was—the Devil herself—cooking in his kitchen. He could smell poison of chemical warfare in the air as the scent of puffy pancakes and melted butter waft into his nostrils.

Erwin let out a hollow but sharp inhale of his breath—the petite woman before him flinches. 

No! What is she doing here? 

“P-Petra...” he manages to squeak out of his parted, dry lips, “J-Just what the hell are you doing in my house?” 

Her usually long and luscious ginger hair is only shoulder-lengthed now—but he knows that every strands on her head remembers what happened seven years ago. She wears a smile on her lips—that commonplace smile from Hell—as she spins her head around; that cutesy act she always does when she pouts, puffing her cheeks—it used to work and complement her pale skin and piercing gaze of hazel brown orbs. 

It can’t be. Tell me I’m still sleeping... Somebody. Wake me.

She chuckles suddenly, breaking his thoughts, “Hey, Er! Good morning to you too! I’ve missed you so much—of course, I hadn’t forgotten about you guys: Hange, Mike, Nana, Levi... all you lots! Oh, by the way, why is it you always leave the windows open?”

Because I have nightmares—

“That’s a bad habit of yours since Zurich! I always wonder about it—don’t tell me you’re trying to shoo the boogeyman away, do you? You really shouldn’t just leave it open like that! I mean, thank God it was me!” 

—of you. You’re everyone’s nightmare. You’re everyone’s boogeyman.

“Anyways, whatever,” her expression turns sullen, “I’m back after seven years—finally! Do you want some breakfast or not?” 

We—no, I—left the windows open so you could leave!

He doesn’t know where he’s got it; but he advances to the stove area where she now stands, merely grabs her by the shoulders and almost screams in her face, “What are you doing in my goddamn house?” 

Petra, the Devil, is silent at first, paying sole attention to the smell of burnt flour that fills the tensed air; Erwin is too compelled and distracted by that as well to resume what he intended to do (forcing her out of his house) and instead, removes his hands from her person to shut off the stove. As he gathers his hand back to his face and feeling the intense vapours from the pan before him, he pinches the bridge of his nose in a deep reverie—almost fleeing his mind out of his body. 

What did I do wrong last night? Too much drinking perhaps? Better cut down on that... No more late night drinks for me! But is this even really real? It is Petra, isn’t it? Is my mind playing tricks on me? Maybe this is just an illusion. Maybe a—

Suddenly, two pair of meek hands reaches up from behind him, feeling up his body from his torso, his arms through to his navel. His blue eyes widened with anger and rage; his body shuddering from her fiery touch—but not out of the passion and lust he knows she still has, rather out of pure and putrid hatred. 

Don’t, Erwin. Don’t even think about smashing that piece of face with your fist or the pan in front of you. You have a reputation. You’re a man of control... 

He ignores his own dark thoughts, mustering as much patience and tolerance—no matter how much it would betray his old self. His digits wrap tightly around the edge of the counter top, balls into a hard and solid pair of fists; her hands still moves around and when he flexes his muscles at where her hands stayed, she would elicit a soft, debauched moan. Then, he feels her resting her small head on his back; his body immediately tenses at the contact, stiff into a statue. She abruptly runs her face against his cotton top, sleeveless vest like a frustrated and irritating child. 

“Hm, Er, you smell nice like always—Oxford Wood Spice, isn’t it?” she sighs, a sharp inhale resounds, “Do you remember back when we were still together? We would do... it right here and you always say you’ll take me any—” 

Without a warning, just as she did with him, Erwin braves himself and spins around; his swift, large hands grabbing her wrists, shoving them behind her person—letting the only border between their bodies being their own beating chests. He pins her to the cabinet behind them but it’s his eyes that showed the most strength of all—they are hollow, deep, empty without nothing but venomous hatred, foul savagery and wild fury. She is frightened as she gazes into them, tremors like the one he just had now infected her like a disease. 

This fucking bitch. This whore. This slut. This unbearable, disgraceful, filthy, vile bitch. Dare she walks into my house and show her damn fucking face! That stupid, ugly, miserable, infectiously disgusting face! This body, this presence that’s been touched, held, fucked by God knows who! 

But no matter how many cusses, words or thought he wishes her could say, he merely couldn’t say it; it’s just not in his nature to be so rough and rude, violent and prude—the Devil notices this. Another vengeful, but rather ravishing moan burst out of her panting, parted lips. 

“Y-yeah, just like that!” she calls out to him in a whining murmur; her legs—those almost always acrobatic long legs—leap up and curl itself around him like a vice grip, pulling his groin closer to hers. “J-just like this... You’d do me, Er.” 

He is too stunned by her act to say anything to that. But there was a sound—a vicious, inhuman growl coming out from his pursed lips. 

Petra dislikes it; she hangs loose her legs and stands properly as she nudged him with her shoulder, pushing him away and allowing him to release his grip. She shrugs before snorting impatiently, “Ugh! C’mon, Er! I’m just an ex crashing as her ex’s house!” 

Before she could walk off from him, he grabs her by the wrist and turns her around; “D’you wanna know what you are to me?” Petra’s trembling return as she sees the wrath in his once peaceful blue oculars, “You’re nothing but another skeleton in my closet. You’re a disgusting piece of human filth. I never ever, ever want to see you ever again. Get out of my house!” 

There. That’s the nicest I could settle for now. 

“Is that right?” Petra lowers her head in a disappointment; her tremors stop as she hugs herself, looking innocent and vulnerable. Suddenly, she jumps up the counter and sighs, “So you want me to leave this house right now—like this?"

Erwin raises his eyebrow as he spins around to understand what she meant; there she was, grabbing the hem of her shirt and reveals her naked, bra-less breasts—breasts that he once used to cup, knead, kiss, lick, and—

God knows who else have done exactly that. Levi probably. Nile too. Mike’s the only one unaffected. Heck, I heard even Ang

“Come on now, Er!” she pouts on like a child and slams her fist into his shoulder jokingly, “And here I thought you’re a gentleman.”

Ugh. Why do I even care? She can roam around naked for all I know and I’d not cover her—she is already naked the way everyone looks at it... Filth. She corrodes everything away.

“Fine,” he pinches his nose bridge again as he now takes up the burnt pan from the stove and places it into the sink, “Just finish your breakfast and clear this mess. I’ll go and take a shower—” 

“With me?”

“Stop it with your cutesy act. You know I can see through it.” 

“Oh, I have no doubt that you can, Er!” she winks at him, but not that he could see. 

“Trust me, Petra,” he faces her now; that once cheerful, careless face of his is now riddled with grieving concern and solidified pain—it makes her flinch a little when he goes around in her direction. “What I see now is nothingness. What I see now is something everyone has already seen—pure and utter nothingness. You’re just a hole in my head, my life and my reality—you’re just absolutely nothing!” 

With that, Erwin leaves her scowling on the kitchen counter with her panty-less legs spreading wide (she was just wearing an oversized T-shirt of who-knows-who); but she realises that her old tricks wouldn’t work on him anymore. They are rivals and enemies beyond the meaning of the words itself and even though most would blame her, she—like she always has—plays the victim well. As he leaves, he feels something bore into the back of his head and he looks over his shoulder at it; her once warm brown eyes are now dinged with the same anger he held against her. He even thinks he senses murderous intent. 

If there’s anyone that wants to murder anyone, that’ll be me. But I know better. I’m stronger than this!

Erwin doesn’t like that he is too kind to women, even though he knows it is always in his nature to be so; when he shuts the kitchen door behind him, Petra suddenly lets out an dry and unfeeling complaint, “Oh! And shut all the windows, will you? It’s bloody cold in this damn house!” 

He stands there—dubiously stunned. 

Did I leave all of them open? 

As he goes to check the rooms on the ground floor, Erwin surprises himself; looks like he did leave all his windows open. It’s almost like a sign, an omen for what’s to come—the Devil herself. He shakes his head, silently reminding himself not to drink again at night, and does as he was told by the other woman. All the ground floor windows are now tightly shut, disabling strong autumn winds from entering again; he now goes up the stairs to check that extra bedroom just now and finds that it had its windows open. 

I must’ve been too panicking earlier on to notice. Damn it, Erwin. How long will you keep this up? You need to move on! Ange’s right! I should’ve tried to date someone else rather than just having one-night-stands... I’ll only end up like her. If Levi had known that I’ve been sleeping around, he’d—

“Kick my tall ass,” he nods at his loud thoughts. 

He heads into his master bedroom, locks his door, and removes himself from his soft and cottony particles of clothing; as the warm water begins to wash up his face, his hair, his body, Erwin begins to remember back seven years ago. 

He was an exchange student doing some finance research in Zurich, where he met what would be his best friends: Levi Ackerman, Mike Zacharius, Ange Z. Pastor, Nile Dawk, Marie Schwiess and a fellow British student by the name of Nana Bastion. They were studying in the same [fictitious name]’s University in Zurich, the Swiss capital where they had the best years of their lives—until she came along and wrecked it all. She started out as a junior who was pretty, lovable and had many admirers; Levi had a crush on her—God, Erwin didn’t even know why he insisted that his Swiss friend should hit it off with Petra. 

Levi was not that type of boy too; that insufferably talented artist deserved better than some lying bitch like Petra. He was a shy and reserved person, who preferred (and still does) to be left alone, isolated from the world and while that much solitude and indifference might kill other persons, it would only strengthen Levi. That was what Petra was after—to destroy that innocent but confident, mature but somewhat naive boy in Levi. She robbed him from his love, his trust, his friendship, his—

I was stupidly pathetic to even think that they could hit it off. Erwin, what were you thinking? No, I can’t think of that anymore. I promised everyone I won’t! We all did!

As he runs his fingers through bubbled hair, he could almost feel his eyes tearing up—but it’s probably soap getting into them. But those old memories—of what could’ve been the best time of their lives—were etched into his mind, his body and his soul; he could never forget how he begged Levi from suicide, how he begged forgiveness from each and every one his friends (some even his mere acquaintances), how he ran in the streets to snap Levi out of his confusion when Petra decided to leave with another man. If there hadn’t been Ange who told them that it was all Petra’s fault and none of theirs, that it was Petra who trespassed their trust and love, then everyone would’ve been stuck at where they were. 

But she’s not Billie Jean. She’s more like Dirty Diana... Just like that line: 'But I was too blind to see, that you seduce every man, this time you won't seduce me’!

Erwin wraps up a towel around his waist and one over his head as he steps out of his bathroom, humming out the same tune he thought of; before he could dry off properly, his phone on his drawers suddenly rings. 

“Hello?” he speaks into it, voice hoarse with fear and alarm. 

“Sir! Oh, thank God you’re alright! Armin! He’s fine!” 

“Nifa, is that you?” He almost couldn’t recogise his assistant’s voice; she almost sounds like she’s choked on tears. 

“Sir, Armin and I have been repeatedly tried to reach you! Where have you been, sir? You’ve missed the Minute Meeting with one of the subcontractors! We’ve been insisting to cancel it, but Miss Pastor took care of the matter.” 

“Nifa, I apologise for not telling you this earlier: I’ve been burgled.” 

There is no reply, but a different voice speaks from afar. “What’s wrong, Nifa? What’s happened? Is he alright?” 

“Nifa, are you alright?” he decides to check for himself. 

“Ar-Armin! He’s been burgled!” and the other voice startles, “Wha-what? Sho-should we call the police?” 

“It’s fine. It’s all taken cared of.” 

“S-sir, y-you didn’t kill anyone, r-right?” Nifa speaks with hitched breaths. 

Erwin lets out a chuckle. “I wish I did, but I didn’t! Now I need you to do me a favour.” 

“A-Anything, sir!” and the distant voice joins rapidly in a hushed tone, “Sir, what is it? Are you okay?” 

“Yes, Armin. I’m fine—thank you for your concern. But right now I need you two to do something for me—off the records.” 

There is another silence from the other line. A sudden thud fills the air and Armin, the distant voice that now holds the phone to his ear says, “The coast is clear, sir. What is it that you want Nifa and I to do?” 

“I need you to purchase me air tickets.” 

“For two, sir?” 

“No, just one person. It’s a she under the name Petra Ral—that’s first name Petra: Papa, Echo, Tango, Romeo, Alpha and last name Ral: Romeo, Alpha, Lima. Got that?” 

“Yes, sir, a Miss Petra Ral.” 

“Yes, that’s right. I want you buy one that leaves today—if possible, immediately. I don’t care where.” 

“Nifa’s staring at the computer right now, sir. We have one going to Milan that leaves at two-o’clock in the afternoon. Shall we book that?” 

“Yes, please.” 

“Any preference for the type of classes, sir—business or coach?” 

“Business. If available, put her in First Class.” 

“Right then, sir. Nifa is purchasing it immediately through your personal credit card; a ticket to Milan at fifteen-past two in the afternoon for Miss Petra Ral in First Class by British Airways. Would you like it to be billed—”

“Send it to my house. This is ultimately personal and confidential, do you understand?” 

“Yes, sir. We’ll see to it that no one knows about this—not even the higher ups.” 

“Thank you so much, Armin,” Erwin lets out a relieved sigh, “You’re a good one, you know that? I appreciate all your work—most definitely so after the fact that you decided to stay with the company even if you were offered better jobs.” 

A round of nervous chuckle fills the other side. “Well, I figured I won’t even find a good boss like you or a good assistant that I could parley with on good terms,” and Nifa chuckles in the background. 

“I’m glad to know that I’ve been a good boss.” 

“And I trust you’ll be on your way here, sir?” 

Erwin nods unconsciously, “Yes, yes, I will. Please keep Miss Pastor informed. I don’t want her to worry about me.” 

“She insists to call you herself. Is that alright?” 

“Ah, that’s fine!” he exclaims, ruffling up the towel over his head as he dries his hair, “Do let her call me, but give it a good half an hour or so.” 

“Alright then, sir. We’ll see you soon!” 

Erwin hangs up the phone with a smile, reminding himself to give a raise for the two of them, and makes another call to a taxi company; he proceeds to get dress and dry himself off at the same time—he wanders back and forth in his room, looking at one grey suit and another before he decided on his favourite Dolce and Gabbana three-piece. He sprays his usual cologne of the said Oxford Wood Spice that Petra mentioned (it has in fact been used for a long while; perhaps it was time to change?) and goes off to grab his undies from the drawers, then slip himself into the suit—there’s that clean and white buttoned up shirt, the obsidian cufflinks crusted with gleaming silver around the ends of the sleeves, the leather belt around his pleated pants, vest in between it all and then the coat. 

Oh, I can’t forget my lucky tie—after what happened just now, I sure need some kind of luck to get to work! Who knows how badly Petra has jinxed me!

He heads on over to his chest of drawers again to look for a deep red tie—it wasn’t a skinny tie, but a normal and traditional one; Erwin’s always loved to wear them. He unfolds his collars and wraps the fabric around them, over his neck, as he folds it here and there to tie it up against the tip of his throat; satisfied with his usual job-well-done, he then checks himself in the mirror. He nudges his tie once again, tucking his shirt a little, and smiles before grabbing the coat. 

He comes down the stairs while buttoning up his coat around his chest and peers his head over to the living room; he didn’t look carefully at the second floor earlier, so he didn’t think he’d catch Petra there with a leather jacket, a floral dress, dark leggings and a pair of knee-high boots there.  

“Good,” he states with a deadpan, “You’re all set and ready to leave.” 

She glances over without a shred of cheerfulness and sighs, “Well, I am being kicked out.” 

He goes into the living room after getting his cup of straight shot coffee; the kitchen opens up to the living room, anyway. As Petra examines him head to toe, she licks her lips and smiles—no, she whistles. 

“Why is it that you always ready by yourself?” she purrs as she heads over to him; he drinks his whole cup as she runs her fingers on his toned chest and tucks at the tightly wrapped tie around his neck. 

Erwin lets out a scoff, “Because I need to steer away from predators like you. If I am already suit up and ready, you won’t ever touch me and fix my tie.” 

“Oh, but Er, you should know you’re just like me,” looks like Petra is tired of playing the wronged one. 

“Everyone admits that I was, but I’m not like that anymore.”

“Ooh, I’m not sure I agree!” she coos as she sits down on his leather three seater—legs curled on the soft seat, “You still flirt around, you know?” 

“That’s one step from not becoming you,” he retorts sharply. 

“How’s that?” she cocks her head to the side with a raised eyebrow—voice sarcastic to a fault. 

Erwin thinks deeply for a moment; he lands his warm cup of emptied coffee on the table and sighs, “Because I don’t jump into the first skirt I see unlike you did. Or was it the first pants you see, Petra?” 

She is silenced by that and starts pouting all over again; he couldn’t help but chuckle—it was nothing of the kind that was induced out of good will, but a dark and malicious one. If he could just endure the next few minutes, then maybe he can actually move on with his life—he’s going to have to confront Petra one day or another if he’s going to continue living or maybe have a family of his own. 

It’s funny how drastic things have changed. Petra used to be so beautiful, so sublime to the eyes; we used to share our secrets, our lies and truths, our laughters and tears—how did she end up like this? Was she always like that all the time? How could she suddenly cha—

“I want Levi, Erwin,” her mere three words breaks his line of thought and seems to stop time. 

She can’t have him.

“I want him back, Erwin.”

She can’t have him anymore. Not again. Never again.

“Erwin John Smith!” she prods on with a loud yell; little did he know, she’s already standing before his looming figure, pointing an accusing finger against his chest—Erwin silently recalls that whenever she’s offended, Petra would call him by his full name. She goes on very audibly, “You will tell me where he is or I swear to God—” 

“Or you’ll what? Do you think people are afraid of you, Petra?” He throws back his own threatening glares, “If anything, you’ve allowed us to see your true colours and despise you even more. I will never tell you where Levi is, nor will any of us!” 

“Fine!” she growls, “If that’s the case, then I’ll extort you!” 

Erwin shrugs his broad shoulders with scoff, “You won’t get anything from me!”

“Erwin, the fact that you live in this part of West London, means Levi is within the vicinity of this shithole. Now, you will give me what I want or I swear, I’ll knock on every door in the street and find him! You wouldn’t want that now, do you?”

She smirks at the way he widens his baby-blue oculars; even though she was mean woman, Petra was smart and cunning. She always has her ways—it’s why she’s so popular with men. 

Anything but letting her get to Levi—no matter how small the chance.

Erwin bit his lip as he pulls out his Prada wallet and takes out a card, “You can take my credit card. I’ve bought you tickets to Milan.”

“See? I know you could read my mind. Devious minds think alike, Erwin!” she winks at him as she takes up the delicious looking, deep-pocketed card. 

But I’m not like you at all.

Much to his surprise, there is a honk ringing in the air from the outside; his phone is ringing as well—the caller revealed to be the taxi company he called earlier on. He exhales a long, dreary sigh of relief. 

“Petra, I’ve called a cab to Heathrow,” he gestures his head to the door, “Take it and leave.”

“I will,” she chirps back at him; she leans down to grab her backpack and heads towards the exit. Erwin follows her from behind, grabbing his own black velvet coat and scarf as he watches her open the door; she walks down the steps and into the garden, before reaching for the cab’s door. But instead of going straight in, she peeks her head out and says, “Oh, and by the way, you are just like me Erwin!” 

He merely stretches his eyes open. 

“Because you actually used your own friends against your own selfishness! You’re too afraid to face the fact that you’d do anything to rid of me and you won’t admit to using your friends for it too! You’ll never be able to do things for yourself and admit your mistakes—just like me! Anyways, good luck, Mr Director!” she waves goodbye and gets off with the black cab. 

That damn woman! 

Erwin balls his fists and slams the door shut behind him; his back pressed against the door as he slid himself down, ruining his suit. He’s about to cry and he knows it, but he just couldn’t bring himself to think that Petra was right. He eyes sting as he dabs them with his sleeves.

I can do this. 

He inhales deeply and sighs; he then walks out of his apartment with his trench coat on and his scarf around his neck, locks the door behind him and heads out to walk to Hampton Wick station. He has parked his Aston Martin in front of his house but he felt like walking—the autumn season’s weather is beautiful today, although a bit windy; plus, if he uses the public tranport (most particularly the trains at that particular station), he’d be able to see her. 

But I can’t even talk more than one sentence with her. 

And of course, that aside, it isn’t easy to stop worrying about what happened; he quietly decides not to tell Levi that Petra had came into his house—after seven years ago, it wasn’t something someone like Levi needed to hear. She had betrayed him (and them, as their friends were also affected by Petra’s betrayal) by going off with an older Greek tycoon and then disappears off the grid with the man, leaving Levi (and them) behind like a puppy in the cold, winter rain. Erwin shakes his head in reminisce—he even notices that he walks too fast. He slows down as he past several shops and houses, sighing every so often at the sight of lovers.  

When will I ever get my happy ending? When will we?

He sees the train station from this distance and it make him smile; just as he walks up the stairs at Platform One, he widens his eyes at the moving LED lights of the announcement screen.

Shit. I’ve missed it by five minutes! Damn you, Petra! 

He goes back down the stairs and up again to the other side at Platform Two; he nods, greeting the old lady who sits alone at the stands with a smile and a ‘how do you do?’ Just as he walks up to the side of the platform, his phone rings. 

“Ange?” he answers. 

“Er! I can’t believe you overslept! Armin and Nifa was just letting me know just how late you planned to be this—”
 
He dryly cuts in, “Petra’s back.”

There’s nothing thrown back at that for what seemed like hours, but Erwin stays focused. 

“When?” Ange speaks again, “H-How?” 

“I don’t know.”

“That Greek bitch.” 

“Calm down, Ange.”

“How did this happen?” 

“I found her in my house.” 

“Did she break—” Ange is suddenly suppressed by her own thoughts, “Erwin, did you leave your windows open again?” 

“Y-yeah,” he chuckles as he presses his forehead, “Looks like those things came back for a reason—it was telling me she was coming and I didn’t see past that!” 

“No, it’s not your fault, Er! We all agreed that this thing is something of the past and that it was her fault—not ours!” she pauses once more, “So what else did that bitch do?” 

“Nothing much but her usual extortion.”

Ange doesn’t want him to elaborate on that, making Erwin gulps nervously. “Did she say anything about Levi?”

Oh, yes. Levi!

“Ange, I need you to call Levi,” his voice is stern now, “I checked with the airline and they confirmed that she has left for Milan and—” 

“You sent her there?” 

“Well, I need to distract her long enough. I even gave her my credit card.” 

“Yeah, like Hell that would work. The damn bitch would maxed it in one day!” 

“Ange, focus! I need you to call Levi. Make sure he’s fine!” 

“Eh! He’s bloody fine! Don’t you worry about it!” 

“But he’s not been to work since September!” 

“Ah, that! Ange giggles sheepishly (or rather creepily), “I know that he’s been missing, but trust me, he’s fine. He’s got his muse back!” 

Erwin doesn’t think that that was good news. In fact, he very clearly recalls that Petra was once Levi’s muse as well; after what happened, Levi had been so depressed that he even burnt all his art paintings and tools, moving on to study IT instead. 

“I-Is that a good thing?” he croaks out, gasping. 

“Erwin,” sighs Ange, “After all we have been through thanks to that bitch, I think we all need a new muse...”

“Yeah, I like the sound of that,” Erwin chuckles as he turns around.

To his delightful surprise, he sees the girl (or rather his new muse) that he has been thinking about; she has just crossed the road, smiling happily like she was ten-million-dollars, whipping her [hair colour] strands in the air. It makes him smile—no, she always made him smile; he often catches her across his platform with her headphones in her ears, eyes bored and uninterested as she admired the world. He recalls that she’s about two feet shorter, had [hair length][hair colour] hair with a very glowing [skin colour] skin that matches her deep sets of [eye colour] eyes. She’s always alone whenever she goes out and Erwin’s never seen beautiful girls like her doing that before. 

Sure, she was a bit mediocre to normal eyes; but Erwin sees something past that—a firm value for independency, the will to survive on her own and without the need of others but still, she has that air of neediness to her—like she lacks something, or rather, someone. He smiles wider than before as he watches her strolls into the platform, acknowledging the presence of the old lady with a quick smile, before she goes (nearly) over the edge. She giggles to herself, making him chuckle in return.

“Erwin, are you there? Earth to Er!” the sound of Ange’s annoying sing-song voice is getting to him. 

He starts with wide blue eyes, “Y-yeah, sorry about that. I spaced out.”

“Which is rare.”

Oh, no. Don’t let Ange in on this! 

“Anyways, please, please check on Levi. I really don’t want her anywhere close to him... and us,” he goes on; his eyes playing on the form of the young woman before him—aching for her touch as if that was his cure, his saviour, his light at the end of this wretched tunnel. 

“Alright! Alright!” Ange hisses, “I’ll give him a call. Now, are you going to the office?”

Erwin simply watches as the interesting girl before him walks past him without noticing him and busy listening to her loud rock music; he doesn’t know why—but every time he observes her, she always makes him smile and feel so much better than before. That was something not even endless nights with five beauty queens could promise or achieve.

Someone’s clearing their throat; “Er?” Ange chuckles nervously, “You’re spacing out again!”

“Y-yes, I am going to the office!” he shakes his head angrily, “I missed the South-bound train so I’m using one through Richmond.”

“Ah, okay. Did you manage to talk to my dad about the new contract with the MP Corps?”

“Yes, I did yesterday. But I’m going to have to sit down with you and the others. Could you set up a meeting later today?”

Ange mumbles something in German that meant something about not being Armin or Nifa before she blurts, “Yeah, yeah! Today sounds posh!” 

Erwin realises two pair of [eye colour] orbs had been watching him for a while; for some reason, she makes him feel uncomfortable and he beads down some sweat through his pores as he gulps that nervous lump in his throat. 

Calm down, Erwin. Smile at her, damn it. 

He shuts his eyes for a milisecond before opening them up with a warm smile; the woman before him is caught off guard by that and she quickly whips her head away from his. 

Maybe she recognises me. Whatever it is, Erwin this is your goddamn chance. 

“I’ll call you back,” he slurs his words into the phone piece. 

“Wait, what are you talking about? I haven’t even finish—” 

He sneaks his phone into his coat pocket and nods silently himself. 

I’m going to do myself a favour! Whoever this girl is, however walled up she is, I’m going to make her mine... and I’m not going to do it the way I always have been doing—the way Petra had me! I’ll impress her with myself—nothing more or less! I’ll be honest, be humble, professional self—no fruity flirty—and crumble down that wall she has around her! I’ll make her mine... This, I swear to you, Petra fucking Ral. I’ll do this my own way. I’ll get my woman in my way, not yours! 

Erwin takes up one deep breath and walks three steps forward; as he stands side by side the young woman, he just couldn’t stop his smiles. He side-glances over to admire her beautiful skin that he would like to touch, hold and kiss, her [hair length] that has a certain way of showing how she knows to take care of herself that he would like to caress and feel, or her sublime pair of [eye colour] oculars that he would love to stare into as he make lo—was he humming out a tune?

Because he now catches her staring back at him. 

Now, you fool! Say it! 

“The weather is as beautiful as you are today!” Erwin feels a sweat coming down his brows, but he hopes that she doesn’t notice the flailing tone of his shaky voice; there is a smile on his face—in fact, he feels like a ten-year-old winning his free ride on the roller coaster. Was he even chuckling? 

God, just stay confident, Erwin! 

He notices that she widens her eyes—the slight blush on her cheeks shows that she liked it; but still, she snorts lightly as she looks away—the way she holds her guard makes him admire her even more, “Are you saying that I never look as beautiful on any other day before this?” 

Oh, shit. This is going to be one long conversation! 

THERE. Part Two. 

I wanted to make this longer with Erwin’s version of his meeting the Reader, but hey! I thought there might be other times for that later! I figured it was more important to show what’s happened to Erwin as he walks out of his house, to show his side of the story. You’ll see how important you are too him soon! tehehe

Also, I was supposed to submit Chapter Three of LFL... ._. 

Mentions for the trivia from Part One: :iconxecrozero: :iconanneseraphim: :iconkkrocker: :iconhalogirl117pr: :iconspyagent001: 

Um, guess what, there should be a trivia question here too. ._. But I’m sort of in a hurry. lolza 

EDIT: I’ve figured out the TRIVIA!!!!!!!! 

Trivia one: Who is Ange Z. Pastor and Nana Bastion’s equivalent in SnK/AoT?

Trivia two: Who is Erwin named after? 

Like the previous ones, first five will be mentioned in the next round!!! ;) 

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Author’s Note:
1) There’s some suggestive themes here. Well, I kind of made Erwin a wee bit womaniser-ish. hehe
2) He’s suffered a lot. I like suffering my characters. And my readers -- notice how long this thing is? 
3) I’ll re-edit this once I have more time. Anything you spot, please let me know! :D
4) COMMENTS, FAVS, and WATCHES are appreciated!!!!!!!!

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Shingeki No Kyojin Universe (C) Isayama Hajime
“Billie Jean” and “Dirty Diana” (C) the legendary Michael Jackson
YOU (C) Basically I OWN YOU in this story (along with Erwin Smith (Plan Proposal) [V4]   and 
Levi (Replies Back) [V4])
STORY (C) Mine
© 2014 - 2024 kaoru-reisaki
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heh, oh dang.. this story just gives undeniable feels >_<.
Your work is so dang amazing *that words fail me* duh.